Meeting My Own Needs

“Go away, don’t bother me I’m busy!” were words that were imprinted on my heart early in life.  I quickly learned my needs didn’t matter and weren’t as important as others’ needs. I started to ignore the voice inside myself that cried out for love, reassurance, connection, validation and began to put myself down when it began to creep through into my consciousness.  I found myself often feeling resentful, envious, angry, depressed and hurt. These useful feelings led me to rediscover what I had denied for so long.  Of course, I have needs and they do matter.  When I first gave myself permission to acknowledge my needs, I felt very ‘needy’ and struggled with shame. I looked to others to fulfill my requests and was disappointed when the hole inside me emptied out so quickly.

Now, I know that I am the only person who can satisfy the call of my heart.  As I acknowledge and accept all of my needs, I ask for help from others when it is necessary and gratefully receive reassurance and validation whenever and wherever it’s available. 

Today, I will listen to the voice within me and respond to myself with a tender love and attention.