BELIEVING I AM LOVEABLE

A thought-provoking line from the movie “Perks of Being a Wallflower”:  We invite the love in we think we deserve.  As I acknowledge the people in my life who love me, I realize it is true.  I often only allow myself to be loved and accepted as much as I think I deserve.  When the line of what I think I deserve is crossed, I push them away or find reasons to doubt their love is real.  My own beliefs about my worth and value prevent me from accepting the love that is available.  No wonder I feel lonely and empty at times. 

In addition, I realize I have allowed myself to be deceived about what love is.  I have, at times, kept people in my life who haven’t been good for me.  I have allowed them to hurt, betray, disrespect, and step over my boundaries in the ‘name of love’ thinking if I let their ‘love’ go I’d never find it again.  This has led only to frustration, resentment, depression, and reinforcement of the belief that I’m not loveable. 

Today, I choose to continue working on transforming these beliefs.  I will affirm belief in my own worth and value and have gratitude for those in my life who accept and love me just the way I am.  I will no longer tolerate disrespectful, hurtful behavior as loving.  Rather I will open my heart to the love that is available around me.  I will have expectant hope and trust in abundance knowing that love will show up as I nurture and believe in myself.