How often do I
swallow what I’d really like to say?
This does not serve the purpose of building intimacy or trust in my
relationships and rather creates distance, isolation and loneliness. Perhaps there was a time in my life when
speaking my truth would have been dangerous; however, that time is now over. The remnants of fear from past echoes of hurt
only continue to enslave me if I fail to recognize that was then and this is
now.
I am no longer an
oppressed victim. I am safe enough to express
my thoughts, feelings, and needs. I can
choose to invite respectful and caring people into my life and distance myself
from those who aren’t open to hearing and accepting me. If another person doesn’t like what I have to
say, I don’t have to negate my own truth.
I now know it is probably more about them than it is about me and it isn’t
my job to manage another’s thoughts or feelings. I have a right to speak up and communicate my
truth. Today, I will remain connected to
my own integrity, acknowledge what matters to me, and be honest when I have
something to say.
Having the right to speak up vs. having the courage to speak my needs and/or my truths are two vastly different things. Wanting and needing to speak up, to ask for my needs to be met, to feel comfort and love, is too oftem paralyzed by the ghosts of the past that strangle my growth by dragging down to the bomb shelters of my youth. To step over the barrier of fear and distrust is a long process. Speaking up in business, in protection of others, is easy. Speaking up for myself is so different. I work diligently to learn the skills and trust in myself enough to start to speak up appropriately.
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