SPEAKING MY TRUTH

How many times have I avoided speaking up and simply pushed down my feelings, thoughts or needs.  I tell myself if I say what I am thinking, it will create waves or cause problems and it’s better to have peace than honesty.  I also tell myself what I think or feel doesn’t matter that much because no one is really listening or interested anyway so silence is golden.  Sometimes, I tell myself if I’m honest others will reject me, shame me, or make fun of me because what I have to say isn’t of that much value so it’s better to just be quiet.  Other times, I think if I start expressing my feelings I won’t be able to contain them and they will explode all over the place, so it’s better just to hold them in.  After a lifetime of being held hostage by these old messages, I can completely lose touch with what I think and feel.  When asked to voice an opinion I simply respond “I don’t know” or tell a half truth.

Today it is safe to know my truth and communicate it.  I will affirm that I have a right to think what I think and feel what I feel.  I will comfort the younger part of me that holds on to these old beliefs and encourage him/her to speak up so I can listen with compassion to myself.  I will express what I know with integrity, respect, and sincerity even if others find it troublesome.  I now believe it is more satisfying to be authentic than superficial, better to be seen and heard than to hide out. 

My truth is of value and worth and I have the courage to connect and communicate it.